Now?

My dear,

it means something when you started to hide a thing from me.

I was very confident about myself.

I felt so great. 

Then i found you did the things that i thought you wouldn't do because you know it would hurt me.

Love,

You're good about making me feel bad.

good enough to make me think that it was my fault.

I forgot you're also a human being,

not a God with perfection.

I forgot you always had this probability to hurt me.

I thought we were gold.

I thought I was special.

I thought I was precious.

But, Love,

Now i really don't know what to do about this.

What eat me alive from the inside

We found each other when we needed each other at the most.

Maybe we don't need each other anymore.

Maybe you just don't need me anymore.

I always be the one who is chasing for conversation,

And you never check out on me first.

Well maybe you did, but after two days when there's no news from me.

Sometimes it has to take more days.

And i'm tired of chasing.

I never said it out loud before,

cause i always hold it inside.

Everytime i felt tired, i talked to myself, 

"Everything is gonna be alright",

"Tommorow's gonna be OK", or

"Go to bed now, it's just a bad day".

But now I can't hold it anymore.

I'm tired...

I'm really tired

sorry, but i'm tired.

i'm tired.

I used to be a bright kid!

i was the sun!

i was the summer!

but then i turned into this gloomy person!

in pathetic way!

Maybe it's because the life itself.

or maybe because of you.

i don't know.

i'm not sure.

but anything i know for sure,

i'm tired.

I can't live like this anymore.